You aren't trying to find the truth.

You are trying to survive the death of who you currently are. Belief isn't an intellectual agreement. It's an identity shift. To accept a new reality, the old self must become obsolete. That resistance you feel isn't logic. It's grief. You are mourning a version of yourself that the new truth no longer requires. Stop asking for signs. Start asking who you have to become to stand in what you claim to want.

Sit with this one.